I mentioned in another post that I used to be a Christian & believed in the Bible. I had faith. I was taught to believe that the Bible is the word of God. After I denounced Christianity I knew that I could never again believe something or put my faith in the writings of some book just because it is supposed to be true.

So when I am to “believe without believing” what is the difference between that and blind faith?

Oh, & while your at it… can God make a boulder sooo heavy even He canââ?¬â?¢t lift it?

This paragraph worries me:

ââ?¬Å?He reminded me of something he had told me often: that volunteers were not welcome in the sorcerersââ?¬â?¢ world, because they already had a purpose of their own, which made it particularly hard for them to relinquish their individuality.  If the sorcerersââ?¬â?¢ world demanded ideas and actions contrary to the volunteersââ?¬â?¢ purpose, the volunteers simply refused to change.ââ?¬

As I read the books I keep desiring to do something. I keep thinking that I would like to make a reference document with definitions of all the points described in CCs books. For instance, The Mold of Man would be point and as I read though the books I would type DJs teachings & CCs insights on that subject and do the same for all the other subjects as I go along. In this way, each subject would be contained as opposed to each being spread out over two or three books.

I hesitate to begin this task for the following reasons:
� It�s a BIG job and would take a long time.
� Wouldn�t it just be another distraction from actually doing or not-doing?
� Maybe someone else has already done this.
ââ?¬Â¢ The cost verses reward ââ?¬â?? would it be worth it.
� Why do it? Because I keep thinking about doing it.

Opinions & Comments anyone?

The following event altered my perception of the world forever:

Back in 7th grade, I was a bit of a rebel in middle school so they put me in a class for the kids that didnââ?¬â?¢t seem to fit in, it was called ââ?¬Å?New Horizons.ââ?¬

Why does the board administration here require all new potential board users to first gain his / her personal permission before beginning to post?

Is the administrator here an insecure control freak, or is there perhaps some other more reasonable explanation?

:blink:

After looking around on the internet for a toltec teacher that i could possibly email to ask one question, it quickly occured to me that all of the online “masters” charge you for any type of contact, and if you can contact them, its to set up some sort of class where you have to pay money. Personally, I wouldnt trust them. What are your thoughts on this matter?

Recently, after mindlessly consuming one of many large burritos I devour each week, I decided enough was enough. Coincidentely, soon after, I stumbled on a book written by Matt Guest and he talkes about the monatomic elements. He says they exsist simultaneously in 2 states at once (whatever that means) and that they are essential for forging the energy body. He also mentiones that the’re concentrated in the semen and are one of many reasons why a pussyjuice cock- tail is a no-no. Even a virgin one, without the pussy juice…

What are ya’lls eating habits and/or describe the consistancy of your stool?

But seriously, is finding the right diet something that just manifest itself. What are some ways to approach eating for both bodies?

I think it was in the last CC that his isolation was discussed in some detail? He did it in some rank motel room.

In 1999 I rented the crummiest, remotest little cottage I could find, it was in September, early spring. Located on the coast, the bungalow didn’t even have a sea view. I removed all the labels from the supplies and there was no tv, radio or books. I had a small pencil and a piece of cardboard, for the first 3 days I wrote down the names of all the people I had ever met. I had no clock, by the forth day, I was running out of stuff to do in a big way, time felt long and I was feeling more and more unsettled and uneasy. I had used the list of names to neutralize my connections, I did a lot of recapitulating. When I finished the list I ceremoniously burnt it. By the 5th day my mind was just non-stop ‘voice’ angry about being wronged by other people, this went on for 3 days, when the blaming other people was exhausted, the voice started to blame myself, I started to see my stupid, unconscious ways and how I had failed myself – this went on till about the 11th day. looking back on that part, it was horrible, difficult but completely do-able. Besides the angry thoughts, jealous thoughts and panic-attacks, the voice also gives you great reasons to stop the isolation, you have to struggle to dismiss the voice and you really don’t want to be there, when you begin to get close to a real commitment to this life, it becomes daunting and downright frightening and the ‘voice’ knows what strings to pull!! By the 12th day I was through the scary part and I felt bouyant, I was at peace with my history and I had finished fighting myself – Durin the next 4 days I didn’t think about how ‘light’ and content I was, it was only after, that I remember how in the moment I was. I was thoroughly enjoying my own company, my voice was hilarious. The days just sailed past, and I was at ease just doing nothing, I sat and my mind just travelled. On the 16th day, I was making lunch and my head said something to me, about leaving but the way and how it was said was really clever, not intelligent clever, but the words were like a trick, an embedded command, it was compelling. I can’t remember the sentence, but in that moment I knew that the voice in my head was not me, the voice had for the first time said something apart from who i think I am – I stumble backwards with a look of surprise on my face, it wasn’t scary or distressing as I had imagined it to be. I felt happy that I had a friend along with me, it really started to dawn upon me that were attached to creatures that are old and know a whole lot(besides being indulgent and lazy). I did 26 days in total, a week short of my agreed time. The last week I really got a good view of how we ‘f*ck ourselves up socially, I realized that the ‘voices’ work together and that we have our friends worst interests at heart.
The sense of what alone is, can only be experienced, alone when you are surrounded with people is how I felt, like how a sober hobo might feel in big city.
Re-entering society after isolation is scary, mostly for the people around you – I learned that a time of ‘debriefing’ is needed or your likely to scare friends and colleagues away – They all seemed different to me and I started to separate from friendships, some separations were painfull, the debriefing would have helped a lot.

In 2002 I did another Isolation, in the desert, going for a more purist view of nothingness, it was both hugely entertaining and super frightening in different ways to the first one but it’s not something I want to share with anyone, it is something personally powerful for me.

If anyone wants my thoughts and advice on Isolation, If you’re serious about the breaking point, I can facilitate you, I have a ‘voice-proof’ isolation that takes 6 weeks(4 weeks Isolation and 2 weeks debriefing/holiday) in the Richtersveld desert in Northern Cape, SA. Far less expensive than any other 6week holiday and way more beautiful and rewarding.

Phil

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These were the Warrior’s Notes I asked about a while back which included the Six Explanatory Propositions:

[url=http://web.archive.org/web/20051205024014/http://www.nagual.com/]http://web.archive.org/web/20051205024014/…www.nagual.com/[/url]

Just click on the “Nagual” bar on the left

then,

“Warrior’s Notes” (Second column, second row)

then,

the “Jul-Aug-Sep” bar (which is actually “Apr-May-Jun”!) in the “Warrior’s Notes 1999”

It’s the first two articles: Parts 1-3 and Parts 4-6

There’s also heaps of other cool articles that the new webmaster apparently took down on purpose. I wonder if they had a valid reason or if it’s just the Flyer’s mind at work!

Lately I’ve had modest success intending energy to my main 7 chakras when I felt it was appropriate. In the Tensegrity book DJ mentions many smaller centers of vitality. Do you guys think he is talking about chakras or something else, because it’s got me thinking of learning the other centers for the reason of intending energy to them. Or do you think the magical passes trump the neccessity for that? Am I stepping outside of the teachings? What are our boundries as nagualist?