I mentioned in another post that I used to be a Christian & believed in the Bible. I had faith. I was taught to believe that the Bible is the word of God. After I denounced Christianity I knew that I could never again believe something or put my faith in the writings of some book just because it is supposed to be true.

So when I am to “believe without believing” what is the difference between that and blind faith?

Oh, & while your at it… can God make a boulder sooo heavy even He canââ?¬â?¢t lift it?

This paragraph worries me:

ââ?¬Å?He reminded me of something he had told me often: that volunteers were not welcome in the sorcerersââ?¬â?¢ world, because they already had a purpose of their own, which made it particularly hard for them to relinquish their individuality.  If the sorcerersââ?¬â?¢ world demanded ideas and actions contrary to the volunteersââ?¬â?¢ purpose, the volunteers simply refused to change.ââ?¬

As I read the books I keep desiring to do something. I keep thinking that I would like to make a reference document with definitions of all the points described in CCs books. For instance, The Mold of Man would be point and as I read though the books I would type DJs teachings & CCs insights on that subject and do the same for all the other subjects as I go along. In this way, each subject would be contained as opposed to each being spread out over two or three books.

I hesitate to begin this task for the following reasons:
� It�s a BIG job and would take a long time.
� Wouldn�t it just be another distraction from actually doing or not-doing?
� Maybe someone else has already done this.
ââ?¬Â¢ The cost verses reward ââ?¬â?? would it be worth it.
� Why do it? Because I keep thinking about doing it.

Opinions & Comments anyone?

The following event altered my perception of the world forever:

Back in 7th grade, I was a bit of a rebel in middle school so they put me in a class for the kids that didnââ?¬â?¢t seem to fit in, it was called ââ?¬Å?New Horizons.ââ?¬