[ensonar]

I usually just remember feelings if I don't remember the details of conversations. That and details of the surroundings. As time goes by and with practice, recollections become clearer, more precise; as does the intent to recall and expell energy.

I don't think the recapitulation needs to be a huge worrisome monster. I think it is important to do it as often as we can and to the best of our ability or better. But instead of thinking of it as some huge task that we couldn't possibly finish, maybe it's better to think of it as a joyous task that we may never finish. But maybe that's just me. I like doing things for the fun of it.

I don't think we're inadequate at all. We're human beings and we're going to die. Everything we do is meaningless. Feelings of inadequacy just seem like another piece self importance.