[ensonar]

Has anyone done this? Ballance the worlds - I want both. I do not wish to cut my ties to my family - however I do wish to grow and blend these two realms ... I feel another pulling at me, a third... I don't really know how to describe this part... this feeling.

I think that's what it's all about. And that is really what i was talking about in the original post. How to balance living in society with trying to live a dream.

For me, it seems like sometimes we have to go to strange lengths to reach a certain threshold where we can live in the everyday world, yet not be touched, or affected by it in a way that limits us.

I think nagualism's techniques show us some of these strange lengths.