09-17-2007, 03:54 AM
I too struggle, wondering if I am a volunteer or not. In a sense, I have a collection of experience's that allow me to feel that the spirit found me. But even then, I believed I was signing up for something. And I thought I knew what I was signing up for. No, I must believe I was tricked. Because this isn't WHAT I signed up for. I hope I can go thru with it till the end. What a misurable feeling it must be to taste infinity and let it pass you by.