[ryan]

Recapitulation requires the gut knowledge of "why am I doing this"

First time using the "quote" tab.

I agree. The only time that I felt results using the recap were when I went into the session fed up with my self and bent on seeing me for whoever or whatever I was. The problem I have is that after I make that gain and have the "revelation" or whatever you could call it I become comfortable with my self once again. It's so ironic, the most fullfilling session I had was the first time I tried it. All the scenes had a common thread and I felt a powerfull message coming thru, it was amazing and it turned what I thought about how I related to this person (my mother) on end. I saw that I was nothing more that an overgrown boy who blamed his parents for everything. blah blah. I know these things are nothing special and commonplace for a person who recaps, that's the point, duh. But still I haven't been able to duplicate the power of my first session. I think it kinda scared me.