[true]

I have been depressed. I'm alone. I don't know anyone that knows what I know... I don't mean knowledge. I mean I don't know anyone that lives in the actual world, awake. And my own awakening has smashed my dreams so I can't go back, not that I want to. The Matrix movie is an apt description. I really thought I had some good noodles, and now it's all gone. But I don't get to wake up on a ship with others who see like me and believe in me and love me. I'm just alone.

Now I'm even more depressed. <_<
But that's cool. It's my emptying out process.
It's funny, sometimes I'm so happy and free, and the same things/reasons that make me happy and free make me sad and alone. Bizzare.

I miss relationship, my female companion. Even though it was a lie, dems was sum good noodles.

The truth is taking everything from me.
The actual experience of being set free isn't as romantic as it sounds.
"And the truth shall set you free!"
"Yeah, that's what I want! I want to be free! We should all be free."
lol!
No one truly wants to be free. But some of us have it thrust upon us.
I don't know about having one chance to grab that bird of freedom...
I swear that fuckin' buzzard grabbed me.
And now it's eating me alive (eating me to life??).