[ryan]

All those questions and all I ended up doing is throwing a heavy blanket on me and a pillow to cover my eyes. I really want to recapitulate with the maddening clarity that CC talkes about. Although I've had some good insights and have been able to recreate the feelings in the scene I can't seem to remember what actually was said or the whole event from start to finish. I think one of the reasons for this is because I never really listened to anybody when they talked, and I didn't pay attention to my surroundings because I was too busy wraped up in my emotions. So I decided to just skip around to all the events in my life that seem important hoping for some quick gaines. My question is: can anybody relate to this, and/or how have you been able to overcome it. Should I take a different approach?