[Crow]

I want to choose whatever automaton I so desire. Whatever emotional response I have to an event, I will acknowledge it. I will choose whether I will act on that emotion or not. I will choose whether I will act as though I feel differently than I do. I want to have the nerve to follow it through to its conclusion.

We disagree on acceptance. Acceptance can mean yes I agree and I'll go along with it, or no I don't agree and I'll go along with it, or I don't give a shit and I'll go along with it. You are supporting I don't give a shit and I'll go along with it at all times. This doesn't work for me. I have tried it. It made me a pawn in a game that I didn't like. I reserve the right to play a pawn in a game that I like, or to decline if I don't like the game. I will support I don't give a shit and I'll go along with it only if I really don't give a shit. I will not try to convince myself that I shouldn't give a shit.

I don't have the same idea of freedom as everybody else here. I am not going to fly past the Eagle. I am going to die. I am not going to take back my edge from my children and volunteers are not accepted into sorcery.
For me freedom is the ability to choose whatever automation I so desire, whether I will go along with something or not, and in what manner I will redefine myself.