10-13-2006, 10:34 PM
Not events so close and so precise, but had some exp.
Somehow I got a feeling that a lot of my mushroom (and some other) trips I have already seen in my dreams, and I get that many times.
The higher I got the more deja yu I get; sometimes I have like 4-6 in 10 min
And once after eating 2 strong ecstasy + 2 portions of mushrooms I had like 10 of them in 15 min.
Moment after moment the sentence "I've seen this - done this before" was coming to my mind that day I saw some green fog on floor in kitchen, that "just was there" without vanishing (could strike my hand through it - it didn't change)
Later my assemb. point moved to point of silent knowledge (or closest I've ever been to that) I was unable to think in thoughts, hard to describe but closest that comes now to my mind is like I wanted to think about something - I got the answer, but there were no words to record it and it was gone, as well as the intended question
Later I tried a different way, I went to bed and tried to sink into topic and instantly voice answers in my head as they came, so small internal dialogue returned.
I got many realizations that night soo many... but I have no memory of them (except 2 main - I should fall in love, I should stop using chemicals (so far failed both = ( ) one more thing that came after those realizations was sadness very deep with no couses just a feeling that I�ve done so many useless things in my life, but never been in love. And the rest I don�t remember (one of my friend came in later that night to ask something (I didn�t care about anything he said) and later said I didn�t look very well
I've done many experiments like this (but only now that you mentioned deja yu, I recalled what happened.) And a have a lot of events hidden in assemb. points but damaged my body (allthough I'am trying to keep up a healthy live-style to have balance, and doing a lot of de-tox diets and fasting from time to time so to clean my system)
anyway next week ill have another experiment with salvia 10x + other stuff
We�ll see what comes up... =)
Somehow I got a feeling that a lot of my mushroom (and some other) trips I have already seen in my dreams, and I get that many times.
The higher I got the more deja yu I get; sometimes I have like 4-6 in 10 min
And once after eating 2 strong ecstasy + 2 portions of mushrooms I had like 10 of them in 15 min.
Moment after moment the sentence "I've seen this - done this before" was coming to my mind that day I saw some green fog on floor in kitchen, that "just was there" without vanishing (could strike my hand through it - it didn't change)
Later my assemb. point moved to point of silent knowledge (or closest I've ever been to that) I was unable to think in thoughts, hard to describe but closest that comes now to my mind is like I wanted to think about something - I got the answer, but there were no words to record it and it was gone, as well as the intended question
Later I tried a different way, I went to bed and tried to sink into topic and instantly voice answers in my head as they came, so small internal dialogue returned.
I got many realizations that night soo many... but I have no memory of them (except 2 main - I should fall in love, I should stop using chemicals (so far failed both = ( ) one more thing that came after those realizations was sadness very deep with no couses just a feeling that I�ve done so many useless things in my life, but never been in love. And the rest I don�t remember (one of my friend came in later that night to ask something (I didn�t care about anything he said) and later said I didn�t look very well
I've done many experiments like this (but only now that you mentioned deja yu, I recalled what happened.) And a have a lot of events hidden in assemb. points but damaged my body (allthough I'am trying to keep up a healthy live-style to have balance, and doing a lot of de-tox diets and fasting from time to time so to clean my system)
anyway next week ill have another experiment with salvia 10x + other stuff
We�ll see what comes up... =)