10-10-2006, 08:53 PM
Hey Lilac;
U'r very sweet and very warrior; part of your sweetness (and stupidity) is that you don't want, maybe afraid to admit how smart you are, and you are!
I don't know how old you are, but warriorship is basically getting rid of the junk that 'they' have put in our head from the moment we get our mother's nipple in our mouth. As Juan Matus said, the spirit starts receding then. Very soon we cannot distinguish between nutrishes mother milk and white snake oil. Even if you are older than me i don't think you have to unlearn as much as i have being raised in a very brainwashing and conditioning society. It took me a very long time to find the truth you mentioned. You are so right; first they 'teach' us what is 'good and bad' and then, after believing them we become slaves and are controlled by being told that we are 'good', "a little nicer than her", "made a big mistake", "did a good job", "only 89% smart", "total 17% stupid". "a traitor". "a terrorist" etc etc. Look how a guy that calls himself the pope, was able to create so much wasted energy in the hearts of so many from the 'other' group, only of what he said about their pope (or something)...
I'm so happy that you've realized, but for me, it was only the beginning of a very very hard and long road to really feel and live it. It is not easy to forget your mother tongue and this is exactly the same. Let me give you one of my examples. It took me some time, but i realized the stupidity of my former profession (airline pilot) and how pilots are engaged so much in self glorifying. I used at that point, when not on duty, to take off my tie and jacket and pretend i was a 'regular' person; BUT, i carried the jacket on my arms and made sure that the sleeve with the four golden stripes of a captain, will be visible...
We built the prison in our heads with a very tall and thick walls. Even worse is who we put as a warden, the most effective and meanest - our ego.
You see, i got this stupid habit of talking and talking and talking, it's worse than having sex, i cannot stop or control it; but, i'm getting better and better, and i think the main reason for getting better, is by not worrying about it, who cares.
You'll see, as u said, the more you'll diminish your ego the stronger you'll feel; no body can hurt you; let them talk, they talk in a very stupid language which is not yours anymore; you cannot and don't want to understand it anymore.
How is Finland in the winter?
U'r very sweet and very warrior; part of your sweetness (and stupidity) is that you don't want, maybe afraid to admit how smart you are, and you are!
I don't know how old you are, but warriorship is basically getting rid of the junk that 'they' have put in our head from the moment we get our mother's nipple in our mouth. As Juan Matus said, the spirit starts receding then. Very soon we cannot distinguish between nutrishes mother milk and white snake oil. Even if you are older than me i don't think you have to unlearn as much as i have being raised in a very brainwashing and conditioning society. It took me a very long time to find the truth you mentioned. You are so right; first they 'teach' us what is 'good and bad' and then, after believing them we become slaves and are controlled by being told that we are 'good', "a little nicer than her", "made a big mistake", "did a good job", "only 89% smart", "total 17% stupid". "a traitor". "a terrorist" etc etc. Look how a guy that calls himself the pope, was able to create so much wasted energy in the hearts of so many from the 'other' group, only of what he said about their pope (or something)...
I'm so happy that you've realized, but for me, it was only the beginning of a very very hard and long road to really feel and live it. It is not easy to forget your mother tongue and this is exactly the same. Let me give you one of my examples. It took me some time, but i realized the stupidity of my former profession (airline pilot) and how pilots are engaged so much in self glorifying. I used at that point, when not on duty, to take off my tie and jacket and pretend i was a 'regular' person; BUT, i carried the jacket on my arms and made sure that the sleeve with the four golden stripes of a captain, will be visible...
We built the prison in our heads with a very tall and thick walls. Even worse is who we put as a warden, the most effective and meanest - our ego.
You see, i got this stupid habit of talking and talking and talking, it's worse than having sex, i cannot stop or control it; but, i'm getting better and better, and i think the main reason for getting better, is by not worrying about it, who cares.
You'll see, as u said, the more you'll diminish your ego the stronger you'll feel; no body can hurt you; let them talk, they talk in a very stupid language which is not yours anymore; you cannot and don't want to understand it anymore.
How is Finland in the winter?