[DrakeWan]

The mood of the west feels familiar (melancholy), and I'm not as sain as normal people like to think they are. I've seen some visions when I was younger, and having dreams and Dreams has always been close to my heart (would be even if I hadn't read CC).

There's always people who think they are naguals, I myself had once a pen pall who had an idea that he had the same allies as don Juan. The same or looking same, I'm not sure.

There are so many people and so many terms..
Christ
Indigo Children
Shaman
Nagual
Children Of The Light

etc, etc... We all get ideas..... the process usually goes....

(1)ideas from the nagual/unknown - (2)to concious thought of the idea - (3)to our self-importance assessing the idea.... our self-importance usually abberates what the nagual/unknown tried to imply to begin with.

But anyway, what do you think? Do you think you are a nagual, and what are your reasons for that? Or do you relate some other character, and why? Or do you think that being a solo means that you have no character to relate?

I don't think I am anything in particular... I could call myself every name in the book.... its only what I choose to be.

If I were to relate myself to someone in Carlos' Books I would classify myself as himself... Carlos.

Years ago I had an idea (good or bad, I don't know) that I'm a western dreamer. One of the reasons is quite funny: CC always adored all the women he met, but the only women that weren't oh sooooooo beautifull were the western women. I haven't ever considered myself being a gorgeous being, so whatta hell... Let's be a western woman!

See thats a good way to abberate yourself and your thinking... for all we know you could be a western dreamer... But being ugly isn't a criterion... I'm sure your gorgeous.. all women assume they're undesirable, even when they're desired..

My over-all point is... your thoughts are like people.. they stop you along your path and talk talk talk talk talk talk talk... stalling you along your way..... the only way to shut them up, is to walk away from them... ignore them and press on...

You were born on the path with a heart (freedom) and you imprisoned yourself in your thoughts.... in 'you'...

Move on, be a western dreamer until you find out what you are... theres only one way to know your not meant for something and thats to experience it...

Dreams are our way of connecting with our true self... our light body/dreaming body... its the closest we get because our mind isn't chattering away assuming to be something else...

But in the end I mostly think myself as a wanna-be, because the things and people of CC's books are so far from my reach. And if that all is just fiction... Well, the main thing when living a myth for real is that it's an interesting one!

I really really want to address this line of thinking..

YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK.... You choose moment to moment who and what you are..... Have you ever been talking to someone but had to go to the bathroom really bad? ... it felt like the bathroom was so far from your reach because you had to listen to whoever it was because what they had to say was 'soooo important' ... but as you noticed how far the bathroom was from your reach the persons ramblings became less and less important...... If you keep with your idea that these things are far from you... you will eventually find no use in your own thinking...
which is why your defense mechanism kicked in ... and you began to think this is all some science fiction crap regardless of whether or not you still go along with it... your thought process is still not complete.. you still 'half' believe it... Meditate on the over-all message I'm sure you'll be surprised.

I would like to relate this parable.. maybe it might make some sense to some people..


It's LIKE a TREE trying to be a ROCK...
We Think We're a ROCK because We're Told We're A ROCK
But Infact, We Are A TREE Pretending To Be a ROCK
Just BE The TREE..... Just BE The TREE...
TREES have ROOTS.... ROCKS Do Not.