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I didn't want to tell you more because 1) I didn't want everybody to know TOO much about me and 2) I didn't want to discuss my failure, and 3) You freaked my out a little with the confrontation with ensonar. He was over dramatic with his request to truncate your work and you went off like a fart. Your pen is mightier than any other pen, but I don't have time for that shit. I am mortal.

I am talking about the kind of stalking addressed in the CC book about the Nagual becoming christian for the purpose of drafting the nagual woman. The point was to act in a manner that I wouldn't ordinarily act to accomplish a goal that I wanted to. You and BracheWarrior have made it clear that I am not ready for this crap yet. I acknowledge that I am not ready for this crap yet.

I have a serious problem with fear of failure (though, surprisingly, death doesn't scare me nearly as much) which I need to address before anything else. I also have to look at my goals since you told me that How do I know that what I have isn't enough?

I really appreciate your responses and I am not trying to pick a fight with you.