09-29-2007, 06:40 AM
I think it is more than possible to fight your own intent. We do it all the time. Why the fuck would the average man want to be a seer? What profit is in it? How does it help ME ME ME ME!!!
We do fight ourselves. We are trying to change out view of the world and something in us doesn't want to let us be free from the shackles of society.
And if that's worse enough, we have petty tyrants trying to trip us at every turn. Not 3 hours ago, i had an encounter with a tyrant, one that (in the past) would have made me do what they wanted so that i wouldn't lose them. Doing so would have gone against what i know was right. i was very sure of myself today, of what is best for certain people in my charge. i let her waste the air (talk) and very calmly stated that what i am doing to the youngsters in my charge IS the best for them and that i am NOT going to represent mediocrity. She cringed after i said that. Now, i'm a bit sad, not for her, but for her kids who will not get any lessons in impeccability from her.
In this encounter, i didn't have to fight myself too much, but in the past, i have let doubts and fears, cloud my judgment and acted in a less than impeccable way. A cowardly way. The way of the average man. But i'm getting better. The fight continues. Continue to stalk yourself and let the Spirit guide you.
We do fight ourselves. We are trying to change out view of the world and something in us doesn't want to let us be free from the shackles of society.
And if that's worse enough, we have petty tyrants trying to trip us at every turn. Not 3 hours ago, i had an encounter with a tyrant, one that (in the past) would have made me do what they wanted so that i wouldn't lose them. Doing so would have gone against what i know was right. i was very sure of myself today, of what is best for certain people in my charge. i let her waste the air (talk) and very calmly stated that what i am doing to the youngsters in my charge IS the best for them and that i am NOT going to represent mediocrity. She cringed after i said that. Now, i'm a bit sad, not for her, but for her kids who will not get any lessons in impeccability from her.
In this encounter, i didn't have to fight myself too much, but in the past, i have let doubts and fears, cloud my judgment and acted in a less than impeccable way. A cowardly way. The way of the average man. But i'm getting better. The fight continues. Continue to stalk yourself and let the Spirit guide you.