[ryan]

i have a fervor, and a doubt. there seems for me to be a fine line between unbending intent and obsession. these momments of obsession, however brief, come in the form of forgeting that this path with heart is just one of many, that all paths end the same, and i somtimes judge. If i were a christian i would probably lean towards "bible thumping". But at the same time posting on this web site for me has allowed me to conceptulize feelings and consolidate and employ my knowledge.

my doubt comes in the form of not having anyone to critisize me and give me feedback on my progress. i know i'm missing things, an indulgence here, some self- importance there, but at the same time I can't stop for fear of these things, i must press on and deal with these facts as they are made known to me. so feel free to be brutally honest.

it's been nice chatting with lilac, and i enjoy reading ensonar's post's. having a place to express my predilections means alot to me, and the interaction with fellow warriors is something that at this time I am missing in my day to day life. so if i ramble, or seem to be a know it all, you may be right, or.. you could be wrong.

thanks all

ryan