02-18-2008, 06:47 AM
Have you noticed that most people have replaced certain very important actions with mere words. Three that come to mind are "thank you", "I love you" and "I'm sorry". Now we're just allowed to say these things and people generally accept them as the action. I've noticed that some people can say these things and yet are totally unaware that there are actions that could be done in such circumstances and they never do them.
For example, the action for "I'm sorry" is to amend the error, and not just apologize. There are actions for "I love you" and they're not buying flowers or a card with someone else's sentiments on it. And gratitude should be a gesture and not a phrase - give something of equal value or what you can.
And have you noticed there are many types of currency with which to pay our debts to others. The world usually acknowledges money as currency, but can there not be a society that values knowledge as wealth, or the teaching of a skill. What could be more valuable than knowledge that frees? But people don't want that, don't value that knowledge. Instead of knowledge, they call it judgement or criticism or worse. That's understandable, but people are so god damn sensitive these days. In this politically correct world, you're expected to respect other's ignorance even as "their truth". I get that. I really do. But the old days of survival of the fittest seem more aligned with nature. I'd really like to act out and bruise these sensitive egos to show people they're alive in a way they're unaware of. Their little world of false security that they create with words... I'd like to smash it with something real. Being protected is so important to them. Give me a man or woman who has been to hell and no longer fears their shadow, but lets it all out... just in your face - deal with it. I'm so tired of games. So bored with people who don't know themselves and presume to speak about anything. The ignorant lies fall out of their mouths and I want to shut them. I was even taking some notes about myself the other day and I said "who are you writing to? I don't want to listen to you either." I'm so fed up with everyone's stories, including my own.
I long for the world of actions. I feel myself growing silent. I prefer to be alone nowadays. The world is so ignorant of the truth, of reality, of actual existence. I'm allowing myself to feel disgust, anger and hatred like I've never known, but not in a helter-skelter kind of way, nor in any arrogant or better than them way. If I thought I was better or priveledged, I wouldn't be angry with the world. (Personally, I think they're all fucking with me.
) But anger is just a useless thought-emotion. When I'm silent, the world seems ok and I don't know that it should be any particular way other than it is. And I'm not alone...
the entire world is already the world of actions. The tree that fell doesn't defend itself or explain its actions. The sun doesn't consider how much sleep I've gotten. The rain doesn't ask permission to fall. The moon doesn't demand that I admire its beauty (but I'm a sucker for her.) Life is good. I just don't know a single human that is living life. They're all victims of their minds.
Good luck on your journeys, each of you.
Not necessarily goodbye.
I just need to be quiet for however long it takes.
For example, the action for "I'm sorry" is to amend the error, and not just apologize. There are actions for "I love you" and they're not buying flowers or a card with someone else's sentiments on it. And gratitude should be a gesture and not a phrase - give something of equal value or what you can.
And have you noticed there are many types of currency with which to pay our debts to others. The world usually acknowledges money as currency, but can there not be a society that values knowledge as wealth, or the teaching of a skill. What could be more valuable than knowledge that frees? But people don't want that, don't value that knowledge. Instead of knowledge, they call it judgement or criticism or worse. That's understandable, but people are so god damn sensitive these days. In this politically correct world, you're expected to respect other's ignorance even as "their truth". I get that. I really do. But the old days of survival of the fittest seem more aligned with nature. I'd really like to act out and bruise these sensitive egos to show people they're alive in a way they're unaware of. Their little world of false security that they create with words... I'd like to smash it with something real. Being protected is so important to them. Give me a man or woman who has been to hell and no longer fears their shadow, but lets it all out... just in your face - deal with it. I'm so tired of games. So bored with people who don't know themselves and presume to speak about anything. The ignorant lies fall out of their mouths and I want to shut them. I was even taking some notes about myself the other day and I said "who are you writing to? I don't want to listen to you either." I'm so fed up with everyone's stories, including my own.
I long for the world of actions. I feel myself growing silent. I prefer to be alone nowadays. The world is so ignorant of the truth, of reality, of actual existence. I'm allowing myself to feel disgust, anger and hatred like I've never known, but not in a helter-skelter kind of way, nor in any arrogant or better than them way. If I thought I was better or priveledged, I wouldn't be angry with the world. (Personally, I think they're all fucking with me.
) But anger is just a useless thought-emotion. When I'm silent, the world seems ok and I don't know that it should be any particular way other than it is. And I'm not alone...the entire world is already the world of actions. The tree that fell doesn't defend itself or explain its actions. The sun doesn't consider how much sleep I've gotten. The rain doesn't ask permission to fall. The moon doesn't demand that I admire its beauty (but I'm a sucker for her.) Life is good. I just don't know a single human that is living life. They're all victims of their minds.
Good luck on your journeys, each of you.
Not necessarily goodbye.
I just need to be quiet for however long it takes.