[regicide]

Is it possible to fight against your own Intent? I feel like I have a strong Intent for a particular direction but I'm purposefully put off realizing it. I now know that patience plays a significant roll because a path for attainment that intent sets up takes time to unfold, but how do I know I'm not fucking up? If I'm fighting against it, could it be a old intent that I've lost a connection with or is Intent renewed and I've lost an original purpose?

[BratscheWarrior]

I think it is more than possible to fight your own intent. We do it all the time. Why the fuck would the average man want to be a seer? What profit is in it? How does it help ME ME ME ME!!!

We do fight ourselves. We are trying to change out view of the world and something in us doesn't want to let us be free from the shackles of society.

And if that's worse enough, we have petty tyrants trying to trip us at every turn. Not 3 hours ago, i had an encounter with a tyrant, one that (in the past) would have made me do what they wanted so that i wouldn't lose them. Doing so would have gone against what i know was right. i was very sure of myself today, of what is best for certain people in my charge. i let her waste the air (talk) and very calmly stated that what i am doing to the youngsters in my charge IS the best for them and that i am NOT going to represent mediocrity. She cringed after i said that. Now, i'm a bit sad, not for her, but for her kids who will not get any lessons in impeccability from her.

In this encounter, i didn't have to fight myself too much, but in the past, i have let doubts and fears, cloud my judgment and acted in a less than impeccable way. A cowardly way. The way of the average man. But i'm getting better. The fight continues. Continue to stalk yourself and let the Spirit guide you.

[Nick]

I think it is more than possible to fight your own intent.  We do it all the time.  Why the fuck would the average man want to be a seer?  What profit is in it? How does it help ME ME ME ME!!!

We do fight ourselves.  We are trying to change out view of the world and something in us doesn't want to let us be free from the shackles of society.

I agree bratsche. The warriors path can at times be very uncomfortable and something deep inside us craves for order and normality. The systematic breaking of routines and habits is what is required I think. That way there can be no normality to seek shelter in. We can start acting on what we feel is the right course of action in any given situation. There is no right or wrong anyway, just lessons to be learned.

[BratscheWarrior]

I agree bratsche. The warriors path can at times be very uncomfortable and something deep inside us craves for order and normality. The systematic breaking of routines and habits is what is required I think. That way there can be no normality to seek shelter in. We can start acting on what we feel is the right course of action in any given situation. There is no right or wrong anyway, just lessons to be learned.

Yeah, it can be uncomfortable. Sometimes it has felt like a burden. A burden of impeccability. How many times has anyone here wanted someone or something so badly that they were willing to forgo impeccability? This "burden" has had me go into crisis mode a number of times. In some of these situations, now that i can look at it in hindsight, i see that i made the best choice. Following what you know HAS TO BE the correct solution rather than following your own selfishness.

Breaking the routine of selfishness, and focusing on others is where it's at. Tough to do it is.

The last few days have been incredibly disturbing. i am developing a strong dislike for the average man. Observing my fellow men over the last few years has led me to a conclusion that is rather unkind toward them. But i can't leave. Not yet.


A Don Juan Matus quote (not sure if the words are all right): "The Nagual is not always as comfortable, but it is infinitely more spacious."