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promise keeper

this is the practice to forge the intent, named promise keeper

1. take paper sheet and write down all things you want to intent and to do.
egz. :
1.build a house
2.learn tensegrity
3.recapitulate all life
and ect.

2. take first intention and make step-by-step shedule.
to build a house I need:
1. make project
2. take a loan
3. buy material
and ect.

3. find a person who will be your promise keeper. discuse with keeper first job of the shedule. how long it will take to do, how you will do it and the period for keeper remindings.
Keeper don’t do any of your jobs, he just reminds you what he has yours promise.
its looks like:
one time a week or month keeper says:
– hi John, I keeping your promise
– oh thank you, Mr keeper.

thats all.

4. then time is out You going to keeper and do report about success or failure.
if you succeded you going to next job in the shedule and do it the same way.
if you failed, you divide this failed project into smaller projects and do it one by one in the same way.

5. then all shedule is done you going to the second intent from the first list.

A New Earth

These are good listening if you’re just lying down and breathing:


They also work well standing and breathing 🙂

Darren Brown

Do a search for this guy on youtube. He’s amazing. He uses hypnosis and NLP
to manipulate people’s perception. I wonder how close this is to stalking. Sometimes I think very close. Basically, he’s an expert in psychology; he knows the human mind and can remove it’s securities and put other descriptions there.
He’s apparently a big hit in the UK. Check it out.

Average folks

i sometimes wonder when i see all the replicated people, doing stupid things out in the open. These people were children at one point. What happened?

chaos; dropping understanding

The science of quantum physics, as well as the seeing of warriors and mystics, has shown us that chaos is the nature (natural order) of the universe and “order” happens in pockets or islands – the island of the tonal.
The tonal, in CC’s books, is often used synonymously as reason or understanding. I prefer to equate it with mind and thought. But there is much more to it. IMO, not enough info is given in Castaneda’s works to understand the tonal and nagual. But fortunately these elements are found in other systems, by the discerning eye.
One of the most enlightening works, IMO, on the tonal and nagual and man’s place/purpose in the universe is found in the Qabala, particularly in Carlo Suares’ fascinating work, “The Cipher of Genesis”. If you can get a hold of this book and read it… well, you’ll be doing yourself a big favor. And much can be gleaned from non-dual systems, zen and tao. So here’s a further exploration into the nature of the tonal based on my studies and observations.

1) The tonal begins at birth and ends at death.
If this is true, then there can be no hells or heavens which would necessarily be organized in some fashion, nor can there be an afterlife unless it is devoid of thought, name, mind, self. So if this is true, many other religions are not true – the tibetan book of the dead and the egyptian book of the dead in particular, and, as Buddha recognized, no transmigration of the soul, no Christian reward in heaven or punishment in hell…. that or the word “death” has some other definition than the normally accepted one. It appears true that the tonal is not present at birth.

2) Anything that can be named is the realm of the tonal.
Another system which emphasizes this is Gnosticism, wherein the one true God is the Ineffable.

3) The tonal is a guardian that has become a guard.
This statement from DJ gets more into the mind aspect where the tonal dethrones the nagual in the human mind, and it does so as a protective mechanism – the ego.

This is the area I’d like to expand on. This desire or need for protection/security, which originally was a very real physical impulse for survival, has transformed into a false, psychological non-existent ego’s need for continuity. Continuity and permanence are false or at best temporal. Chaos, the nagual, is this constantly fluctuating energy DJ speaks of.

I guess what I want to emphasize is a warrior’s need to stalk/observe moments of continuity, security, understanding… and recognize these as tonal desires/dreams that are simply not possible/actual. I don’t know that the tonal begins at birth and ends at death. But what is more significant to me is that all tonal items are born and die – they are temporal manifestations of order, but they cannot be maintained permanently. What is essential to recognize with the ego is its effort to achieve continuity, to survive. It can only do this by REPEATING THE PAST, and PROJECTING THE PAST INTO/AS A FUTURE. The ego does not exist; cannot exist presently, and present/now is all there is. But it can appear to exist through order, memory, habit, repetition, security, the known. The desire to understand is a front of the ego seeking security and control – order to resist the reality of chaos which would rip the ego apart.
A common element in all these ego strivings is the known (which is the same as the past) – there is no room for the unknown in the ego or first attention or self-reflection. The unknown is having no reflection, leaving no footprints, being without reference, mind emptied of knowledge/thought. The internal dialogue is always talking to us about life; it isn’t life. Mind is always one step removed from life. Let there be just life. That is non-duality. As long as there is life and someone living/experiencing life there will be conflict/seperation and you will miss the true meaning (being) of the nagual. You are the nagual, always have been. But you won’t know it until you eliminate the mind. And then you still won’t know it because there will be no knower and the known – there will be oneness.

I don’t think I said all that I meant to. I’ll have to come back and re-read and elaborate. My focus was meant to be living with chaos instead of resisting it and trying to maintain order. I wish to convey a certainty that order cannot be maintained because it is not the true nature of life. The true nature of life is life-death: flux. So we are back to death again. Death must not be a future event. That supports the false ego’s view, but it doesn’t support actuality. Life is the unknown – we must die to every moment in order for the next to be new. There can be no past, no knowledge, no storing/grasping. We must let these die in order to truly be alive.

the world of actions

Have you noticed that most people have replaced certain very important actions with mere words. Three that come to mind are “thank you”, “I love you” and “I’m sorry”. Now we’re just allowed to say these things and people generally accept them as the action. I’ve noticed that some people can say these things and yet are totally unaware that there are actions that could be done in such circumstances and they never do them.
For example, the action for “I’m sorry” is to amend the error, and not just apologize. There are actions for “I love you” and they’re not buying flowers or a card with someone else’s sentiments on it. And gratitude should be a gesture and not a phrase – give something of equal value or what you can.

And have you noticed there are many types of currency with which to pay our debts to others. The world usually acknowledges money as currency, but can there not be a society that values knowledge as wealth, or the teaching of a skill. What could be more valuable than knowledge that frees? But people don’t want that, don’t value that knowledge. Instead of knowledge, they call it judgement or criticism or worse. That’s understandable, but people are so god damn sensitive these days. In this politically correct world, you’re expected to respect other’s ignorance even as “their truth”. I get that. I really do. But the old days of survival of the fittest seem more aligned with nature. I’d really like to act out and bruise these sensitive egos to show people they’re alive in a way they’re unaware of. Their little world of false security that they create with words… I’d like to smash it with something real. Being protected is so important to them. Give me a man or woman who has been to hell and no longer fears their shadow, but lets it all out… just in your face – deal with it. I’m so tired of games. So bored with people who don’t know themselves and presume to speak about anything. The ignorant lies fall out of their mouths and I want to shut them. I was even taking some notes about myself the other day and I said “who are you writing to? I don’t want to listen to you either.” I’m so fed up with everyone’s stories, including my own.

I long for the world of actions. I feel myself growing silent. I prefer to be alone nowadays. The world is so ignorant of the truth, of reality, of actual existence. I’m allowing myself to feel disgust, anger and hatred like I’ve never known, but not in a helter-skelter kind of way, nor in any arrogant or better than them way. If I thought I was better or priveledged, I wouldn’t be angry with the world. (Personally, I think they’re all fucking with me. 😉 ) But anger is just a useless thought-emotion. When I’m silent, the world seems ok and I don’t know that it should be any particular way other than it is. And I’m not alone…
the entire world is already the world of actions. The tree that fell doesn’t defend itself or explain its actions. The sun doesn’t consider how much sleep I’ve gotten. The rain doesn’t ask permission to fall. The moon doesn’t demand that I admire its beauty (but I’m a sucker for her.) Life is good. I just don’t know a single human that is living life. They’re all victims of their minds.

Good luck on your journeys, each of you.
Not necessarily goodbye.
I just need to be quiet for however long it takes.

Can I learn to lose and win?

Now here’s the thing. Competition. Something in me craves it. One of me or maybe more than one of me thrives off it. It watches others intently looking for weaknesses to exploit. It craves winning. When it loses it hides and cowers. Limp it feels cheated. It plays the game of chances to the extreme. Risk it all just to be right. In the infinity of chaos what is winning or losing? Who knows the agreement best? This duel is ongoing, a battle of wills between the heart and the mind. The emotions are forced, led and duped by tricks of the mind. The heart is soft and yielding. When the mind wins the emotions follow behind marching in triumphant jubilation singing songs of victory. And in loss, the march drags its feet and there are long downcast stares, bitterness fills the air. And yet when the heart is brought to bear, allowed to participate, to play, the winning and losing is less important than the connection that simply comes through participation. The heart is the essence of feeling connected which is possibly why a path with heart can never make a wrong turn even when the mind insists that it has. The mind without the heart sponsors separation.

The cat needs to come back in…


“To break routines is not the purpose of the path; it is only one of its means. The goal is to be aware. Keeping that in mind, another definition of stalking is ‘an unbending attention on a total result’.

“That kind of attention applied to an animal results in a hunting piece. If we apply unbending attention to another person, it produces a client, a pupil, or a romantic relationship. And applied to an inorganic being, it provides what sorcerers call ‘an ally’. But only if we apply stalking to ourselves, can it be considered a Toltec art, because it produces something precious: Awareness.” – CC to A. Torres

the neurophysiology of change

check this link to the triune brain:


Notice how the brain has evolved – first survival, then emotion and memory, then learning, speaking, reading and writing…
If you could see the path of information, it comes up the spinal cord and into the reptilian brain where it moves through the reticular activating system in which items of awareness are “measured and weighed” or judged as acceptable or not. If there is nothing comparable in the inventory, the item is rejected. It has been said that a mere 30% of what we actually perceive gets through the reptilian brain into our conscious awareness. 70% of reality gets rejected.

There is something here to DJ’s statement that we don’t learn unless our lives are on the line. This is why you have to be tricked into this; you have to need it to survive. If it’s not necessary for survival, the reptilian brain most likely rejects it before it gets to the neo-cortex and is seen as reality.

More later… gotta work again.

stalking (others) pointers

First, it’s going to be a big help if you’re stalking amongst people you don’t know or haven’t ever met before. Always use such opportunities to practice not being yourself exactly.

Second, try to set up a situation where you have to succeed. If you’re just doing it to experiment or have some fun, you might not have the proper inspiration to really go for it with both feet, if you know what I mean.

Third, it’s true stalking when you fool yourself. You can’t be knowing who you “really” are while you’re stalking someone else, some other self. If you loosen your personal history and beliefs and such sufficiently, stalking becomes quite easy. There is no ‘self’ who you really are anyway.